You know that feelings when you were in the middle of your happiness then all of a sudden your mood changes because of something majorly bad happened in your life. Well, I kinda felt that yesterday morning, (October 10, 2014, about 3:00 am - 5:00 am) while I was still with my friends having the time of our life and just making the last until we got drunk.

I lost the money for my last payment for my tuition fee, I lost 17k while having fun. I never expected that to happen because the whole 17k was in my panties and It is secured for me rather than putting it on my wallet.

I never realize that It was missing until I was about to buy some Graham balls. I were planning to buy 200 worth of graham balls then when I touch the middle part of my panties, everything is flat and I can't feel no folded money on my underwear.

At that point I was in a full swing, I'm panicking myself up, I'm shaking and I'm already freaking out, crying my head off and I am totally adrift of the situation that I never expected to happened ever in my entire life.

Things went so fast, the money were like only 10 hours on my care then completely vanished after that. I am speechless the time it had happened.

The other thing that really makes me cry at that moment, is that for the first time ever, I have tried to feel the real meaning and essence of "DISAPPOINTMENT" I am devastated and i just want to scream all the anger that is on me the moment occur.

After loosing all the hopes in me, I went home and I admit immediately to my mother that I lost the money. 

I don't want to tell everything after that because it is too personal to tell and it is not good for the readers to read.