For almost 21 years of my existence I've been through tough times, through ups and downs through rough patches of my life, I've been through those things that I never imagine that I can do, but the only thing that I always wondered why, is how I've become so single in those years? Is it because I'm ugly af, is it because I'm too stupid that no one will like me because of my stupidity? or is it just simply because I'm not worth to be loved by anyone than my family and friends.

That question ramble's my mind for so long, it makes me confused on when and where will I feel loved by someone? When will I find my match. Will I ever find my match? or do I have a match?

In life, there's only two kinds of people, the one who is a hopeless romantic who believes that meeting someone depends on the faith as the stars aligned and the other one is those realistic people who goes for the gold and make every relationship or even hook ups the best that they can do.

Maybe in this barrel, I could say that I am a hopeless romantic, because I do believe in true love and I do believe in monogamy in many way possible. I also believe in Chivalry.

It is not easy but then again I love to wait for the right one for me, the right guy to make me happy until death do us part. 

I don't know, maybe I'm just getting older every year that makes me feel more pity for myself because I'm always single.

Anyways, this is just a thought. So... Good Day!