I smiled when I see my two friends talking like that. It's been a while and I love to continue my life with them.

But while reading the entire conversation I didn't see my name on it yet Arra mentioned every gay member in our circle of friends.

I just realize by then...

Yes! They become your friends, 

Yes! They become your close friends and 

Yes! They become your best friends,

but still you will mean nothing.

It seems like they don't treasure me as their friends.

and it feels like I'm an outcast. I feel like I'm different and It feels like I'm not a part of the family.

Oo, I Thank them so much because ng hindi dahil sa kanila, I would never be the person as I am today. And I'm thankful kasi nagkaroon ako ng mga kaibigang tulad nila.

Kaso parang ang lagay kasi ng friendship ko sa kanila is something like I'M JUST A DISPLAY.

akala ko pa naman I gain their trust na. Akala ko they will treasure me na just like the way I treasure them despite of everything kaso by that simple post, I realize that I'm not enough for them. I realize that It's still not enough.

(sighs) Headache! Sakit sa bangs.

anyways. That's the way it is.